If you read my last post and thought that I was one step away from pulling the plug... Well... Maybe I made it appear that way. And I'm sorry. Because its not at all.
Pastor says today "God doesn't give up on us, we give up on him." Ugh. So true. I'm sure God knows and has a plan for my life, and I know he hasn't given up on me. I just feel like it. And then I feel like I need to take matters info my own hands because clearly I'M the only one who can make it happen.
I want to be obedient... It's just that I don't really aspire to be a patient person. Never have. If I had asked for patience, this would be fun. But I didn't. And it's not. Regarding my last weeks post about what I am supposed to be doing with my life; I don't care what the answer is, I just want it 3 months ago. {Apparently God is not aware of my time frame here.}
I am blessed BEYOND measure. Every morning I get to wake up to a little voice calling "mommaaaaa"... And she is talking to me!! And every night (or most of them anyways) I get to look into the eyes of a man who has exceeded my wildest expectations of what a husband could be, and kiss him goodnight. I have two jobs I love and am so excited for the opportunity to learn a new skill these next few months!
The pastor is saying that we are doing the right thing if we are being obedient, even if we don't "feel like" being obedient. Even if we are cranky about it.
Well I'm here to say that I'm a little cranky about it. And maybe that comes across as overly dramatic. Probably. But I'm trying. And waiting. And in the meantime life is pretty darn amazing.
{Hear that, God? I'm waiting. So my lesson in patience is working. That means we can be done now, right?}
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